I waited every single day while I was pregnant with you. Waited, waited, and waited some more.
When I found out I was pregnant with you I thought I was going to have an ectopic pregnancy. We went to the emergency room after I had a week of terrible, fall to the floor, pains. I knew I was pregnant with you after a home pregnancy test. I was so afraid and so nervous that you weren’t ok. They couldn’t do anything and we had a follow up with my OB.
I wanted you SO badly. There was nothing in the world I’d ever dreamed about so much outside of becoming a mom.
At the appointment my OB misunderstood my fear that the “numbers weren’t doubling” like they were supposed to. She asked me, “Are you sure you want this baby?”
My heart sank. I could not believe she had asked me that question. Yes, I wanted that baby, more than anything in the entire world I wanted that baby to grow, be healthy, and be mine.
But you held on, my little peanut. Thank the Lord you held on.
Yet, I almost lost you again. On the morning of your due date I knew I was in labor. We went to the hospital and we were about to be sent home to wait when I rolled on my right side and machines started to beep, the nurse came running in.
We were no longer going home, instead we were going to have an emergency c-section to get you out. Your heart rate had dropped dangerously low. In no time flat you were here! Your dad proudly announced you were a girl!! I was counting your fingers and toes from where I was lying. I could see you right to my right side. You came out yelling, thankfully!
Come to find out, my placenta had “expired.” No, you hadn’t run out of room in my belly like I thought, you were running out of everything else you needed.
Oh my miracle baby, I am so thankful for Devine timing that made you mine. Thank you for choosing me to be your mama.
You get the learning as I go mama side of me, but you’re incredible and we seem to be learning together these days.
You are strong.
You are courageous.
You are incredible.
You are important.
You are everything I ever dreamed of.
You’re our little sweet pea and we love you more than words will ever be able to express.
May you wake up to have a blessed 8th birthday, my princess girl.
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